Not A Good Start

[la_samtyr]

This is about my little dog, who is very ill. Lots of sad stuff under the cut.

LeeAnn (my little dog) is still very ill. I didn't think she would make it through last night but she did. I think it was a turning point for her. She's 13, and has congestive heart failure. I am told she was born with it but it didn't present itself until very late. In dogs, they usually only live about a year, max, once they are diagnosed and she was diagnosed last October. There's no getting better this time; I can only make her comfortable. Now even 'being comfortable' is about over and all too soon, I will have to make *the call* to the vet. I have been hoping she would just go to sleep and not wake up. That was what the vet thought was most likely to happen anyway.

Yet today and (so far) tonight has been 'ok' for her, and she acts much as she has been. But I can't allow myself to be fooled into ignoring the truth. She trusts me so and asks for so little in return -- I admit I have not been as productive writing or doing a lot of stuff just so I can sit and play with her. This is the downside to pet ownership, and I have an aging pet population. (One of my cats is 18 and the other is 12. It's not pleasant to think about, and right now I can't think too much about it.)

So if I seem to disappear more than usual, that's the reason why.

Comments

[spiced-wine.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry, Sam, having been through this myself, I know it is heartbreaking. I will be thinking of you. {{{Hugs}}}

[chaotic-binky.livejournal.com]

I am sorry to hear about LeeAnn - I know how much you love her. It really hurts to see pets sick like that, and being with her is a lot more important than being with us. I hope she has a good while yet left in her.

Sending you and LeeAnn big hugs and keeping you both in my thoughts.

[perkyandproud.livejournal.com]

*hugs you a lot*

[independence1776]

*so, so many hugs* Being with her is definitely the most important thing right now. *hugs*

[oloriel.livejournal.com]

*hugs* So sorry to hear about LeeAnn. Don't worry about not being productive, though, of course you want to be there for her during her last weeks/days! Parting with a beloved pet realy is like losing a family member, whatever some people may say, so naturally it's not easy to handle. Wishing you lots of stress, and a dignified way out to LeeAnn. ;_;

[curiouswombat.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry.

[rhapsody11.livejournal.com]

How heartbreaking it is to let go.. I will be thinking of you (and the days after) when that moment arrives.

[jaiden-s.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry...

[engarian.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is so very hard. Just cuddle her and give her lots of love. It's so very hard to let our loves go and then feel that emptiness in your life and your home. I hope that both you and she join together in this final step. *hugs*

- Erulisse (one L)

[aglarien1.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, hon. Hang tough.

**hugs you**

[bkm5191.livejournal.com]

oh honey *hugs* I know you will strong enough to make the best decision for her if you have to.

[casey28.livejournal.com]

So sorry about your little dog. *pets her gently*

*hugs*

[boltonia.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you're faced with making this decision. I understand exactly how you feel - it's just over a year since I had to take my cat Spooky for his final vet visit. I'm thinking of you.