My Bucket List

[la_samtyr]

Gakked from my f-list: A list of my short-term and long-term goals (bucket list), and things I've actually accomplished.

Short term (before end of 2011):
1. Send out Christmas/holiday cards
2. Get membership at Y
3. Finish writing for BB *and* SeSa
4. Donate too-small clothes and un-traded books to local charities
5. Lose some weight (or at least keep from gaining it all back)

Warning: rant at the very end of the list.

Mid-Term (before fall 2012):
1. Clean out garage so Camry will fit inside
2. Buy cheap, old pickup so I can haul brush and not *hope* someone will keep their promise to help
3. Clean out misc. storage places -- at least one of 'em
4. Renew passport (not that I'll probably ever use it... :/ )
5. Lose some more weight (or at least keep from gaining it all back)

Long term (assuming the Mayan prophecies are incorrect and the world does not end on 12-21-12 -- you know, after looking that number sequence, it just might end on that date after all...):
1. Try not to make any more stupid mistakes
2. Travel (assuming my health will permit it -- a big if)
3. See if I can find my lost books ::fingers crossed::
4. Watch some of the dvds I haven't had a chance to watch yet
5. Try to lose even more weight (or at least keep from gaining it all back)

I used to have a huge list of things I wanted to do -- all my different dreams. *Used to*. Not any more though. I ran out of time and energy (and $$$) but what I regret most of all is the loss of time. That's the big lie you know -- that you have *time*. You think: "Oh I have time to 'whatever' (in my case, help care for family) and I'll do (my dreams) later on."

But you don't have time, and once it's gone, it's gone forever. You'll never have it again, and you'll feel a fool for the rest of your life that you bought into the lie.

Comments

[spiced-wine.livejournal.com]

I don't think the world will actually end, but *something* might happen, and it might even be good, you never know.

But you don't have time, and once it's gone, it's gone forever

I know what you mean, Sam. But I only had dreams when I was very young; then I got too anxiety-ridden and depressed to have any.

{{hugs}}

[samtyr.livejournal.com]

I still had dreams up until the end of '99. I still thought that somehow, *just maybe*... but I should have known better. Yeah, cynical and bitter -- that's me.

[engarian.livejournal.com]

It is possible that things will end or change. But I can't regret what I've been doing, the friends on my f-list that I've made, and what I've created and written. Life is too short to live with regrets, so I just try my best to maximize what free time I have to balance the "ick" with the "umm".

- Erulisse (one L)

[samtyr.livejournal.com]

"But I can't regret what I've been doing, the friends on my f-list that I've made, and what I've created and written."

--Yeah, that's one of the few things I'm happy with/proud of too. (But too much of my life has been one long waste... and that I am not proud of.)

[boltonia.livejournal.com]

So much of your list would also be on my list.

I understand so much about lost time. The summer of 2009 I was unemployed but drawing an impressive severance paycheck from June through Oct. I didn't go anywhere because I had the attitude of "I can't do that, I'm unemployed, I need to find a new job!" Little did I know that a job would just drop in my lap 2 wks before the last check.

Now that I'm back in the working grind, I can't help thinking I could have left some rent checks for the bro to drop off, sent the cats to the farm, and spent that entire summer schlepping around Europe. After all, I was still getting a decent paycheck for not working!

Ahhh, severance regrets...

[samtyr.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, I know what you mean. Once I managed to get to Europe, I should have stayed there and just gambled on things working out. But instead I played it safe and came back to my gilded cage. :/

[chaotic-binky.livejournal.com]

We have all made bad choices because we allowed compassion and selflessness to guide us - I have done it, you have too and so have most others. Now we are getting older and wondering where all the time went. It is time we get new dreams; ones that we can achieve, and go for them now we have less responsibilities. They can be small things, but once achieve it feels so good :D

I would love to travel, which is not likely in the future, but I have already achieved one dream and that is people loving my writing. The good feeling from that kept me going for ages.

I don't think 2012 will be the last year of my life - calenders always end somewhere, even perpetual ones.

[samtyr.livejournal.com]

"Now we are getting older and wondering where all the time went."
--Yeah. It's not the years I mind as much as it is the decades. :/

"It is time we get new dreams; ones that we can achieve, and go for them now we have less responsibilities."
--The weird thing is, I thought my dreams from then (the ones I had in the top five) were all achievable. But I'm 0 for 5, and now I really *can't* imagine very far ahead.